Drowning

I am swimming out here with floatation devices that do not work they only sink.  Bills that just cannot wait to pull me down to the killing floor strapped to walls of never ending poverty.  They say it is getting better out on the mainland but i see people diving every day.  going to the bottom to search for to look for ways to pay these things that we cannot live on the mainland without.  Out on that mainland I hear people talk of things like what music they like or vacation they might... never mind they are forgetting that job they got that keeps them lost in time they may not get to spend doing the things they love but settling for something less than what they want and they don't last.  Dying frozen in place in the sunshine who only request time off and get tangled up in societal restrictions that gives them no more existential direction.